I need to lose weight. Bad. I just eat so much fucking food, if I could cut down, I would lose weight fast. With other stuff, i need to do so much for me. I am gross.

Healthy. Something i could use a little more of in my life. Well I have not checked my E mail and I suppose I should do that. I'm awaiting my test results that tell me weather or not I will have to go back to school and take Econ again. I feel like I have to for some reason. Lets check this shit out.

Well, he did not  get them yet. Lazy ass counselor has not done her job. As usual. He Sounded chatty in the email  but I do not want to respond. He's to chatty any ways.

And I emailed the guy for my free "make marijuana legal" sticker. Been waiting on it for a while.

Alright, so, awaiting test results. And  I need to fill out my fafsa. I need a part time job that doesn't care if I smoke herb, and it needs to be legit and nice.

and  I bought a 3DS. Me and Dustin did actually. It is cool as fuck.

In four hours I will be presenting my Senior Project. Isn't that dandy? I think I'm ready. I hope I am.

God please help me have the strength to do this. PLEASE!? Amen. 

Smoking fake weed again this morning. If its something else i would ask God for its for some dam sensible teenagers so we can all go back to smoking ganja. I'm really over the fake weed epidemic. I firmly believe that's what it is. An Epidemic.

Anyways. Its time for some thinsperation. And rehearseration. lollll.

I'm a little bit closer to achieving my goals. Let me review those real quick. Nope, you can't buy Halloween shit when your broke. Nope, haven't gotten any checks. Still working on that senior Project thing.

All that's alright, its only been like 6 days. Its cold as hell this morning. I love it.

Bored now and do not feel like typing too much so I'm gonna go look at pictures this thing  has to offer.

OH, and i Need to blog this daily to remind my self how bad I want this.

I am going on a diet. I'm pretty sure i weigh at least 160 lbs. I so badly desire to lose at least 25 pounds. That would be awesome. But i will decide how much when I totally figure out my weight.  I want to be skinny. I want to be skinny. I cant say that any plainer. I want to be beautiful and worth something. Looks can get you really far in this world and I have never seen my self beautiful before. I would love to love me. Dont get me wrong. I kinda like my body. I got huge tits, I got pretty small feet with cute little ankles, but i want to have smaller thighs, WAY smaller tummy, lose these muffin tops and maybe I can get rid of my double chin in the process. Yeah. So that's what I want to do and I know it is 100% possible.  have got to find something to  occupy my time so I don't eat a lot.